So, I’ve come to the conclusion that I need to write to thrive. For some reason I’m often afraid. For some reason I feel like there has to be “rules.” I look at Everyday Paleo like an entity sometimes instead of “my blog” and I’ve seen it grow and grow and grow over the years and it’s grown into something I fear – which is bad. I fear that if I put myself out there like I really want to and if I really let you get to know ALL the parts that make me ME, it won’t be what you want. That fear however has made me frozen and has made me enjoy less and less the upkeep and maintenance of this blog. I love doing our podcast because there is no filter like the one that is my keyboard. I can talk into that microphone and not think as hard about what I’m saying (sounds weird I know) but when something is WRITTEN, it’s as if I’m putting my thoughts and words into stone, never to be undone, and that creates a sense of scary for me that keeps me from EXPRESSING. However, I’ve come to a crossroad. I want to keep writing, I want to keep being, I want to keep sharing and since this is my blog, I’m going to be a bit selfish and I’m going to look past my fears and I’m just going to write. I might not always write specifically about Paleo Stuff because I’m simply not only about Paleo Stuff. I am a mom. I homeschool my two youngest boys. I have a son who will be going to college next year. I am a daughter. I am a sister. I am a wife to a husband who loves me more than I deserve. I am a strength and conditioning coach, a business owner, a world traveler and a woman. I am all of these things, I’m not just The Paleo Lady and I need to share with you all of these things in order to make myself whole again.
So, consider this your warning. This blog will continue to live and continue to be filled with information about health and wellness and all things paleo, but it will also be me. My Blog. My stories. What I want to share. I will be writing more consistently because I am making a choice to no longer be afraid, and frankly, I don’t give a damn anymore. I need to fulfill that NEED that I have to express myself with written word. To share. To hopefully give a little more of myself to you – if you like it or not – in order for this site to continue to grow and flourish, I must continue to grow and flourish as well.
With that being said, I will now say thank you. Thank you for all the years you have loyally followed this blog and my adventures. Thank you for sticking with me through all the craziness of internet land. Thank you for listening, responding, and sharing. Thank you for letting me share with you and now I will continue to share with you in a way that feels real to me and in a way that lights that fire in me again like I haven’t felt in a while.
I’ll be back soon with more!!
As always, enjoy.